Who Am I

Welcome to my page. Come one come all. I appreciate this platform whether it be no readers, 15 readers, or one million readers. My thoughts are partially my own, since really all my thoughts are shaped by some predecessor. One thing you may notice about me is that I am terrible at writing. Or so I've been told. Conventionally, sure this is not academic writing. I prefer a more conversational style, something you can read in your head as if I am talking to you. Because really I am, each and every single person that reads this I am talking directly to you. Whatever reason you have come across this post, my only goal is that you are able to take at least one thing away from my thoughts. So maybe then they can become part of your thoughts, which then become part of someone else's thoughts. My thoughts come from a lot of places. That's exactly what this platform is, just my thoughts. Now I keep a private journal and that's completely different. This is more of things I would like to discuss with people, or at least putting some questions out there for you all to think about.

I guess this is supposed to have some sort of structure, giving you a reason to be here. I apologize, I do not operate by structures. If any structure, I operate as a funnel. I start at the bottom, one topic. Then as I go higher and higher upon the funnel I add more and more topics. I move in a circular motion rather than linear, so that I can't finish one topic until I've started at least a little bit of the next topic. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but it makes sense to me. I try my best to communicate but a lot of times my thoughts and my words simply do not connect and it's so hard to get out my ideas. Maybe that is why I am bad at writing. I am hoping that if I devote some time to writing here, maybe gain a few followers, my writing my improve and I might learn a few things.

I don't really know how this site works but if there's anyone out there listening, I'd love to hear from you. Who are you? I guess I may not have answered that prompt the typical way, but I think I answered it the way that best describes who I am. You will get to know me a lot better by the way that I portray myself through my words rather than what I tell you about myself. If you are so inclined to know, my favorite color is light pink and I really love any type of Easter colors. However, I am getting into Autumn colors a lot more recently. Beige, forest green, brown, gray. I like more of the palette there than individual colors. I consider myself to be on a spiritual journey. I have begun journaling a lot, meditating, yoga has become an important part of my life, I read a lot of Eckhart Tolle, the Four Agreements, if you want more on that just let me know but I'll probably discuss it a lot in later posts. I am a really curious person, I try to learn as much as I can but I consider myself a jack of all trades, master of none. That's kind of where my funnel might come in again. I start on one topic, like the funnel, and I move around a bunch of different topics to try and understand my beginning topic. Every new topic I add is a new layer of information and a new stop on the path. However in my little funnel there's no top. There's infinite learning until one day, I die. I started my college experience going for International Relations. Now, I am about tot graduate with a double major in International Relations and Economics with a minor in Computer Science and I am hoping to go to graduate school for either philosophy or linguistics. It's not that I love to 'know' things, it's that I love to learn things. Once you think you know something, you will never be able to continue learning. I do not claim to know anything. That is simply the only thing I know, that I do not know anything. I am pretty proud of that.

Do you think you know anything? Do you think you know me now? I chose to tell you three simple things about me. My favorite color, my belief system, and my area of study. What does that tell you about me? What judgements do you make of me? I would love to hear, it's not that your opinion will affect me, rather it will intrigue me. I can learn a lot about you by how you perceive me. I can learn a lot about myself by how I perceive others. So who am I? Who knows!